CLOSER TO MY DREAMS...CUZ IMMA GRINDER

I HAD THE PLEASURE OF SEEING GOAPELE DO AN IMPROMPTU PERFORMANCE OF CLOSER AT THE MONIQUE SHOW....AND INSTANTLY TEARS CAME TO MY EYES AND AS TEARS WELLED UP I FELT AS IF GOD WAS SENDING ME A MESSAGE. I FELT AS IF ALL MY FEARS, ALL MY ASPIRATIONS AND ALL MY HOPES WERE BEING GIVEN THE GRACE OF GOD. SOME MAY KNOW AND MANY DONT, BUT FOR YEARS I HAVE PRAYED FOR SUCCESS...I HAVE PRAYED THAT MY MISSION WAS BEING FULFILLED AND I WASNT SPENDING TIME ON A CAREER THAT WOULDNT BARE FRUIT IN THE END. NOTHING WORSE THAN FEELING LIKE YOU WASTED 11 YEARS IN VAIN. NOTHING MORE HEART WRENCHING THAN NOT KNOWING WHERE YOU'RE REALLY GOING AND IF AT ALL YOUR GONNA GET THERE AT ALL. HAVING DREAMING AND LIVING YOUR DREAMS ARE TWO TOTALLY SEPERATE THINGS AND I AM NOT PREPARED TO LIVE IN THE UNKNOWN AND WAKE UP TO REALIZE IT WAS ALL JUST ONE BIG FANTASY. I HAVE SACRIFICED MORE THAN JUST HOURS OF WORKING TOWARDS MY GOAL. ITS MUCH DEEPER THAN NOT HAVING LOVE AND NOT INDULGING IN PETTY EMOTIONS. IT FLOWS DEEPER THAN WALKING AWAY AND NOT LOOKING BACK. SO AS I SAT IN MY SEAT I FELT THE WORDS SHE SANG WERE MEANT JUST FOR ME. I KNOW I WASNT THE ONLY ONE IN THE ROOM BUT WHEN SHE SANG THIS...I FELT AS IF EVERYONE HAD DISAPPEARED AND I WAS SITTING THERE ABSORBING EVERY LYRIC BECAUSE AT THAT POINT MY SOUL WAS RELIEVED AND MY FAITH HAD RENEWED. SO I TELL YOU ALL DONT GIVE UP AND IF YOUR IN COMMUNICATION WITH GOD AND YOU FEEL WHAT YOUR DOING IN YOUR HEART IS MEANT TO BE DONE FOR THE GREATER CAUSE AND NOT JUST TO BE A FIXTURE IN THE THING CALLED LIFE...THEN HOLD YOUR HEAD UP HIGH...THANK GOD AND CONTINUE TO WALK IN FAITH...BECAUSE YOU ARE GETTING CLOSER TO YOUR DREAMS!!!!